November 7,2020

“I am always afraid of loneliness, it’s very scary. Before I sleep every night, I put the blanket over my head and sleep quickly. For a while, I was so scared that I thought ghosts and monsters where coming for me. I bought a whistle and was whistling every time I was scared at 2 PM, that way all of the neighbors would run outside to see what’s happened, and that would relief some of the stress I had. I am now going through the most difficult part of my life and loneliness is affecting me the hardest, no one wants me like before, I was truly happy at the beginning of my marriage. I used to do anything I wanted, but I can’t do anything now. I need people around me more than ever, and COVID19 has made matters worse for me because we neither can visit anyone, nor can anyone visit us. My parents and my husband were very good to me, but they have all passed away now. My husband had bought me a lot of gold, even my fingers were covered with gold. I never loved anyone else after him, and I still pray for him and go to the cemetery to visit his grave.”